Dear Ze ,
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| Love, Magnifier♥♥ ♫♫ |
Dear Ze ,
Dear Ze,
Today was Easter! Whats better than a late movie night? I decided to watch "What If" finally. Ahm, for me it was an 8 out of 10 . It was really good, i really loved the whole theme, the places were amazing, Zoe and Daniel are two incredible young actors , their characters absolutely excited me. She was dreamy! I loved the thing she was constantly thinking her as a drawing story kind of with the fairies and the animated stuff. I was really touched by her tiny tattoo in the back, it was soo......artistic and meaningfull. I'm mumbling now but i liked that movie! The whole atmosphere was really attractive but...but .but. but!! I can't understand why in every movie the couple is not best friends from the very beginning and the only relationship between them is really sexual and erotic. Well , the answer maybe to this question is SCENARIO ! But, wait think a little bit more.Two people are getting together most of the times because they love each other not only in a sexual meaning but in a other meaning also, the one who consists loving each others personality and daily goofyness. Two people who are a couple supposed to be best friends first in order to work this thing out. I can't just think being with someone and really not knowing him much or talking him like he is some stranger. Come on , you are 5 years with him, you chose that , you should be happy, not down, you should love him till your heart aches ...... My one and only misery and sadness would be to not love my "whoever he will be" partner's personality and flaws, to talk to him like i met him yesterday, to talk to him only when i wanna get laid with..... No!!Your guy is supposed to be your best friend! At least thats what i believe..... Ahm and now you will think "oh my i will never watch this movie. Will it bring me these thoughts? Jeez" .. And the answer is : No , it just that i'm so thinking about it the last couple of months.. It is something i'm gonna search about, i wanna search about!! And to "positive" you now , i made today my candle on my own ..yeiiiiii!! My family and i went to church the night, embrace the happiness of every person in that area and hope our lives to be THAT lighten (like the candles) ..... Also today after a long time i made my first doll , it was a little bit creepy and it didn't look that well. So , on my to-do list i can add "Remember to sew" .... Well, thats for now, i will go back to this "love-best friend" subject again when i search more about it and have a whole collage of several people' thoughts... Goodbye for now,
Love, Magnifier ♥♥
Dear Ze,
I already missed you! Oh my goshie, watching this pile of books sitting in my couch for like 2-3 weeks makes me feel awkardly anxious. My anxiety level has turned bloody red. No i am just kidding. Its just you know the thing that i cant actually believe that in less than two months my 2nd semester exams are coming. So i am just doing the duck and ...........ignore this pile and the worst thing of reading them. In reality it should be the quite opposite, i should have been so happy and eager to read and learn more and more about the profession i am probably going to follow in the future. Is this an other bad outcome of my "upside down" teen life? No! I can't always blame the teen life for these feelings. I have to sit down and meditate, think about what i really want in life , what and where i wanna be 5 years from now. I should generally reflect on my life! Where do i want to be 5 years from now? Doing something i actually don't like which means..........sadness and boredom or doing something that really excites you and makes you feel you are not even working? Well, yea the second sounds much better! But you know, leaving everything behind and chase a dream might be a total success or a total destruction! Would you risk or would you stay as you are , where you are and let things go smoothly as they do? Questions , questions in my head, a head full of questionmarks !! Well, leaving everything behind and starting a new life sounds really attractive ... "The great things in life most of times begin from small suitcases with a teddy bear beside." , they say but is that a realistic state of mind or just thoughts of a dreamer? More questionmarks in my mind. Its getting really full, Ze...! How am i gonna empty my mind from all these marks? Yes, you are right , by taking them out and that thing only i can do because i am responsible of my own self, of my own thoughts, i am the one who controls everything in this place (pointing on my head) ......... Soooooo , think , think , think.... Watch this pile of books again and again , turn your PC on, go search if these books are what you really want, what you really need, what you really WILL follow. This is the only thing you can do and you must do! What are you ? Search , search !!
Love, The Magnifier ♥♥
I already missed you! Oh my goshie, watching this pile of books sitting in my couch for like 2-3 weeks makes me feel awkardly anxious. My anxiety level has turned bloody red. No i am just kidding. Its just you know the thing that i cant actually believe that in less than two months my 2nd semester exams are coming. So i am just doing the duck and ...........ignore this pile and the worst thing of reading them. In reality it should be the quite opposite, i should have been so happy and eager to read and learn more and more about the profession i am probably going to follow in the future. Is this an other bad outcome of my "upside down" teen life? No! I can't always blame the teen life for these feelings. I have to sit down and meditate, think about what i really want in life , what and where i wanna be 5 years from now. I should generally reflect on my life! Where do i want to be 5 years from now? Doing something i actually don't like which means..........sadness and boredom or doing something that really excites you and makes you feel you are not even working? Well, yea the second sounds much better! But you know, leaving everything behind and chase a dream might be a total success or a total destruction! Would you risk or would you stay as you are , where you are and let things go smoothly as they do? Questions , questions in my head, a head full of questionmarks !! Well, leaving everything behind and starting a new life sounds really attractive ... "The great things in life most of times begin from small suitcases with a teddy bear beside." , they say but is that a realistic state of mind or just thoughts of a dreamer? More questionmarks in my mind. Its getting really full, Ze...! How am i gonna empty my mind from all these marks? Yes, you are right , by taking them out and that thing only i can do because i am responsible of my own self, of my own thoughts, i am the one who controls everything in this place (pointing on my head) ......... Soooooo , think , think , think.... Watch this pile of books again and again , turn your PC on, go search if these books are what you really want, what you really need, what you really WILL follow. This is the only thing you can do and you must do! What are you ? Search , search !!
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| Katie Shelton , one of my BIG life inspirations. Well, in that pic i see myself right now, i'm thinking those things i 've been telling you about by crafting and diy-ing. Cool ,right? |
Dear "Ze" ,
I would really like to find you and , you know, talk in this "lettery" way like pen-palls. So who doesn't like that, having a friend , someone to talk to whenever you want and open your heart to? I think everybody does and whoever says "Nope" he is lying for sure. I am dreaming of it my whole life and now that time is here, i finally found you. I am still not quite sure what name should i give to you or what sex , so i will call you "Ze" , neither "she" nor "he" . So , today i was constantly thinking about teenage years . And you know what? Because in two weeks i am about to turn 19, the last -teen and i believe that this year should be special for everybody. Its your last -teen !! Someone told me that your 19s is the period when your " maddest hatter " self wakes up. Also it is this period you start to think more about your future plans , the profession you are about to follow , the people you are gonna be next to and generally your future. But ,really, we yound guys have a BIG mess in our heads so one day you are like "La la la la" , "i'm gonna do this, that ...." and the other day you are like "Oh i wanna hide in my bed under my blanket and never go out in this messy world again where everybody wants to hurt me" . That thing , Ze, i call it "teenage life" . Everybody has been in this "Era" and now is my turn. Yes, i am having this "upside down" period right now which ,believe me, sucks but i will never ever forget it too. You know why? Because is a once life time thing, you will not be able to experience it again so enjoy your "upside down" madness. This is a way of forgeting my "no reason" sadness for a while! And by "this" i meant talking about this era like its something funny, something that will leave with the wind in half a shake. My letter today was so tiny but it was original, it consisted my thoughts right now which obviously are a bit sad and that makes me even more lonely and isolated. I'm not gonna whimper right now in your face so i'm gonna end my letter here...... Oh there is a sequel. Stay tuned Ze...
Love, the magnifier ♥♥
Love, the magnifier ♥♥
^^ bUCKET lIst ^^
So i decided to share my thoughts and goals for the near future. I think everybody has a checklist on his mind . Well , mine is the following :
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| Have strawberry-chocolate milkshake with my beau in a retro-cafe |
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| Create my wardrobe on my own |
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| Have the library i want with books like shakespeare, brown, kits e.t.c. |
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| Buy vintage dresses from thrift shops |
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| Do silly stuff with my beau |
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| Have a bunny pet |
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| Perform a solo |
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| Feel pretty every day |
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| Take minimalistic photos |
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| Crafty things on |
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| Have a camera collection |
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| Have a pen-pall |
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| Keep up the cuteness and happiness |
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| Work hard to gain more |
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| Reach success |
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| Finish my secret project |
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| Enjoy the beauty nature gave you |
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| Be creative with my sisters |
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| Have long joyfull chats with my sisters |
♫♫♫
The magnifier says bye bye ^^
Resolutions, goals, aiming , ticks : well, is the new year all about that? For some people maybe yes. And let me add myself on this list of the "some" . Everybody is waiting for that moment , for that "00:00" to wish "happy new year" to their loved ones and start organising their messy lives. Is that right? Yes , it is! For instance, see the whole youtube family organises their resolutions and shares them in cute "new years goals/resolutions" videos and how to reach them and bla bla bla.. So how am i supposed not to stuck on these ideas and goals?
- Start following a healthier lifestyle ,
- Growing your hair,
- Don't be afraid of showing your personal style and attitudee
On the other hand, this "resolutions/goals" thing makes me sick and anxious (daily may i say) because its like my mind is a white board and black dots are popping out ..... Do that, do this oh and this.! And that freaks me out a little and makes me feel even more lonely and isolated. So in this part the outcome is crying(by thinking about it all the time) , feeling fat(without being) and crawling in my shell (in my case under my fluffy bed sheets) . So overthinking about your goals and resolutions is such a bad attitude ! And who says that? Me? Yes me, the one who is already overdoing it. So , you should see your resolutions as a little, with slow steps , daily push into something you want to get improved in life :) And ,yes, now i leave you with this cute message or advice : "Don't overdo it or overthink about it. Just keep up with your life , let it go slowly like a small river flows.." Hm really poetic today Christina...
♥The magnifier says bye bye ♥
Χριστούγεννα, μήπως είναι λίγο νωρίς να μιλάω για αυτά; Η απάντηση μου "καθόλου" και ας επεκτείνω λίγο αυτό το καθόλου. Για μένα κάθε φορά που αρχίζει το καλοκαίρι και κάθε φορά που τελειώνει σκέφτομαι τα Χριστούγεννα. Γιατί; Μήπως είμαι απλά κολλημένη σε αυτά; Όχι κάθε φορά τα σκέφτομαι διαφορετικά. Όταν έρθει καλοκαίρι τα σκέφτομαι σαν μια καλή, ζεστή νοσταλγία του χειμώνα τον οποίο θα είναι ψέμα όποιος πει πως δεν τον έχει συνδυάσει με τη χριστουγεννιάτικη ατμόσφαιρα, τις ζεστές σοκολάτες , τις τηγανίτες, τις σοκολατένιες κρέπες και τα ζεστά θεραπευτικά τσαγάκια.
Όλη αυτή η ατμόσφαιρα από νοσταλγική ανάμνηση γίνεται επίμονη αναμονή μόλις τελειώνει το καλοκαίρι, μόλις αράζουμε στον υπολογιστή μας τυλιγμένοι με μια κρεμ κουβέρτα με τα δύο επίσης τυλιγμένα με ψηλές καλτσούλες ποδαράκια μας απέξω να πηγαίνουν πάνω κάτω τόσο χαριτωμένα και ξαφνικά παρατηρούμε έξω από το παράθυρό μας (που μόλις η μαμά κρέμασε νέες χειμωνιάτικες κουρτίνες) χιλιάδες φύλλα να πέφτουν από το απέναντι παρατημένο μα φουντωτό δέντρο. Και νομίζω πως αυτή η στιγμή έχει μπει για τα καλά. Και ,ναι, (κοιτώντας τις σημειώσεις στο φόντο του κινητού μου) 31 μέρες για τα Χριστούγεννα!! Μπορώ να πω πως έχει αρχίσει για τα καλά για όλους μας η αντίστροφη μέτρηση και για κάποιους βιαστικούς (σαν και εμένα) έχει αρχίσει ήδη να ξεπετάγεται η χριστουγεννιάτικη ατμόσφαιρα σαν μπουμπούκι. Χορταρένιες γιρλάντες με μικρά κόκκινα κουδουνάκια και χιονονιφάδες στολίζουν τόσο όμορφα τον μεγάλο πάγκο της κουζίνας. Μικρόσωμοι αι-βασίλιδες κάνουν την εμφάνισή τους σε μικρές γωνίες του σπιτιού το οποίο είναι τυλιγμένο στα χρώματα του χρυσού, μπορντό , μπεζ και πορτοκαλί. Και ξαφνικά εκεί μέσα στους δύο καναπέδες απέναντι από το παράθυρο με την υπέροχη θέα των φύλλων που πέφτουν από το τεράστιο δέντρο(πραγματική θέα) αναδύεται σαν Αφροδίτη το υπέρλαμπρο χριστουγεννιάτικο δέντρο μας περιτριγυρισμένο από χρυσές κορδέλες και πολλά πολλά φωτάκια. Χαλιά μετακινούμενα σε όλο το σπίτι και ένας μικρός γατάκος να ξεπηδάει από την πόρτα της κουζίνας με τη μύτη του στον αέρα και το στόμα του ανοιχτό μπας και πιάσει καμία κρέπα στον αέρα ή κανένα ζαχαρωτάκι λαχταρώντας το καθώς μπαίνει στην ζεστή σοκολάτα με κανέλα που φτιάχνει η κόρη με τα μακριά μαλλιά.
Όλη αυτή η ατμόσφαιρα από νοσταλγική ανάμνηση γίνεται επίμονη αναμονή μόλις τελειώνει το καλοκαίρι, μόλις αράζουμε στον υπολογιστή μας τυλιγμένοι με μια κρεμ κουβέρτα με τα δύο επίσης τυλιγμένα με ψηλές καλτσούλες ποδαράκια μας απέξω να πηγαίνουν πάνω κάτω τόσο χαριτωμένα και ξαφνικά παρατηρούμε έξω από το παράθυρό μας (που μόλις η μαμά κρέμασε νέες χειμωνιάτικες κουρτίνες) χιλιάδες φύλλα να πέφτουν από το απέναντι παρατημένο μα φουντωτό δέντρο. Και νομίζω πως αυτή η στιγμή έχει μπει για τα καλά. Και ,ναι, (κοιτώντας τις σημειώσεις στο φόντο του κινητού μου) 31 μέρες για τα Χριστούγεννα!! Μπορώ να πω πως έχει αρχίσει για τα καλά για όλους μας η αντίστροφη μέτρηση και για κάποιους βιαστικούς (σαν και εμένα) έχει αρχίσει ήδη να ξεπετάγεται η χριστουγεννιάτικη ατμόσφαιρα σαν μπουμπούκι. Χορταρένιες γιρλάντες με μικρά κόκκινα κουδουνάκια και χιονονιφάδες στολίζουν τόσο όμορφα τον μεγάλο πάγκο της κουζίνας. Μικρόσωμοι αι-βασίλιδες κάνουν την εμφάνισή τους σε μικρές γωνίες του σπιτιού το οποίο είναι τυλιγμένο στα χρώματα του χρυσού, μπορντό , μπεζ και πορτοκαλί. Και ξαφνικά εκεί μέσα στους δύο καναπέδες απέναντι από το παράθυρο με την υπέροχη θέα των φύλλων που πέφτουν από το τεράστιο δέντρο(πραγματική θέα) αναδύεται σαν Αφροδίτη το υπέρλαμπρο χριστουγεννιάτικο δέντρο μας περιτριγυρισμένο από χρυσές κορδέλες και πολλά πολλά φωτάκια. Χαλιά μετακινούμενα σε όλο το σπίτι και ένας μικρός γατάκος να ξεπηδάει από την πόρτα της κουζίνας με τη μύτη του στον αέρα και το στόμα του ανοιχτό μπας και πιάσει καμία κρέπα στον αέρα ή κανένα ζαχαρωτάκι λαχταρώντας το καθώς μπαίνει στην ζεστή σοκολάτα με κανέλα που φτιάχνει η κόρη με τα μακριά μαλλιά.
Οι , -Τhe Magnifier